4.11.2006

Why I was gone for 2 months or How I became numb about the bomb....

After responding to the socio-political goings on for the last year or so, I grew tired of replying, it became more of a mental exercise, and a futile one at that...I, the individual, was not going to exact any change via my words...I can/could only live my life to the ideals I set for myself...my grandiose ideas of being some type of catalyst was just that, grandiose, sure it feels good to the ego when like minded people agree with your viewpoint....I was going to use the myth of Sisyphus, but the more I thought about it, it did not apply, there is no boulder, there is no movement pushing it up a hill, only to come down at the apex everytime....I, as most in this forum, are just a bunch of talking heads, complaining, and not really even moving a "grain of sand" much less a boulder...maybe this is a cry for help, maybe this is another grandiose musing of my ego that I think will capture someone attention, maybe it is just stark reality...Control is just an illusion that our oligarchy allows us to have, time to time...we live in a fascist society, our government is the opium of the people...matter of fact, all governments are the opiates of the people....there isn't any "by the people, for the people", it does not exist....as long as people starve, are homeless, not clothed, given adequate healthcare...as long as we pollute our earth to make profit...we can build a bridge to nowhere, we can plan trips to Mars, we can bomb brown people, but we can't properly educate our own nation, we can't save a dying Africa...I rephrase, it is not we "can't", it is we "won't"....it is not just the US, everyone just graviates to their own country of origin, it is the world, other nations are sitting on their hands as well...I applaud the individuals that try and intentions are sincere...yes, it does affect me, but I have grown numb to the inaneness of it all...